I like the idea of observing myself carefully and figuring out what exactly I'm doing to sabotage my vision. I guess it's the habit of resisting the strain, which makes the things worse. When strain occurs, I unconsciously perform some counter-work to compensate the disagreeable state. I think this counter-work establishes the balance of forces that makes eye disorders so unbelievably persistent.
My mind constantly fools me by trying to hide the strain and the counter-work I'm doing, letting it slip habitually into the subconscious area. It takes some attention and patience to not let it happen, and keep it within conscious field. Interesting...
